these are not good days for dreamers but you can trick yourself by doing just that, by what you've done all along, dream, I'm still keeping a part of you inside, waiting for something to happen to it, I can't wish any further, I'll let time decide now, cause after a while we both will see clearer, and maybe I'm not the only one that saw something good, I know I'm not, It's just that, I'm the only one that said it and still will, if you need me, I'll be here, in any form, for you I always am

it's confusing sometimes, how good we are but there is that moment of awkwardness that we both dislike, I for one sure do, some nights are still hard, who knows where we are heading, I know I'm doing something wrong but I can't figure out what, hope it's not too late when I realize what that is

I want to believe that I finally let go, disconnecting myself, pulling the plug of something beautiful that used to hurt and that's not the way I intend to treat us, I want and hope for both of us to embrace the old good times in a new light, a new chapter that will not include hidden thoughts and you will see that my loyalty was not only out of love, but out of friendship, I will always love you in any way that keeps us close

it's clearer now, no numb feelings, no more tears, just a little sigh ... but it will pass, feeling so much better with her, it's still a little bit weird but I hope it passes, just like the winter will and the good times await, new is the new word now, exploration and no second thoughts, cause at the end of the day ... it's all about me(her)

feeling numb today, like I disappoint everybody by not doing what they ask, what they expect,  cause what I want never matters and never did, I'm sorry about today and I'm sorry about what happened, wish I could change, but i tried and tried, nothing seems to fit, and when I ever wanted was you, I couldn't have that and it broke me beyond repair, I'm sorry for that to, but I still love you, I'll always do, cause it was never about me being happy with you, it was about me making you happy with me